I know most people tend to have an "after Christmas Crash" of some sort. You know, the holidays are over, and life just seems too blah again! Or maybe it's all the ridiculously unhealthy food you stuffed your face with the last couple of months dragging you down. Whatever the case may be, at some point the after Holidays low hits us all. Mine ran me over full force this week.
I'm usually a little down after Christmas, but it lasts no more than a day or so. This year, however, my entire week has been a roller coaster of crazy emotions. I swear the other day I could have just sat in a corner and cried the entire time. I am attributing most of my hormonal breakdowns to that of my pregnancy, but will also take notice that we had a crazy whirlwind of a Holiday, and going from seeing family and friends all day everyday to nada, can be tough!!
Poor Josh has dealt with most of this emotion. The other night we got into a small rift, causing me to hyperventilate in tears. I grabbed my coat and keys and drove to McDonalds parking lot! Here I cried to my mother on the phone for about 30 minutes, before decided an apple pie and coke were a good idea!! My logic is undeniable, I know!
The tiniest little things seem to be sending me hurling over the edge lately. If you know me at all, then you know I am not some huge crying emotional person. Normally if someone upsets me I can either argue right back and let them know how I feel, or just get over it, but crying is saved for the "big" things in life.
So today I am going to try to take it easy and sort through some of these emotions. I know I've kept a lot of anguish about my pregnancy in. You know, will I be a good mother...etc etc!! So maybe I just need a day to cry, and rant!! Wonder if it would make me feel better!!??
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